Today I’m sitting here typing this post with an child’s easter hat on my head. I actually had forgotten that I had it on. I’ve been wearing it all morning. My daughter gave it to me earlier and without question I simply put it on to apease her.
This small act symbolizes the challenges we face as Stay at Home Moms who attempt to work in their spare time. It’s like trying to wear multiple hats at the same time.
You try everyday to be the best mom you know how to be and somehow squeeze in a few hours or minutes of personal time which is spent writing. Those extra minutes aren’t spent on exercise, or relaxation or reading a book. If I get those extra minutes, I try to further my career.
I think it’s the sense of accomplishment, of finishing something. As a mom your job is continual. it is a never ending series of breakfasts, lunches, dinners, cleaning, fixing, playing, teaching.  There is no real project with a deadline, unless you consider potty training before the age of 18 as a deadline.
Maybe it’s the sense of contributing to society. As mothers we contribute a great deal to the betterment of society by raising our children into upstanding adults. But really when they leave me what do I have? Children are never really “yours”. You call them ‘mine’ but in reality they are their own person. Your children have their own dreams, their own lives to lead. We don’t own them. And we inevitably let them go at some point in our lives.
Writing for me is like putting a piece of ME out there. Saying this is from me, it’s mine and always will be. It gives me a sense of accomplishment when a project is completed that is all mine, not shared with my children or my husband. And it makes me proud for myself.  That I was able to do something significant on my own.
I think that’s why I am working on a stable career in writing, because it will be MY career.
I’m not sure this post is as eloquent as I would have wanted. Sometimes it can be difficult to put thoughts and feelings into words. But that’s what being a writer is all about, trying your best to get those thoughts down on paper.
Happy Writing everyone! (and kiss the kids and then put them in their room to ‘nap’ while you write)